Saturday, May 17, 2008 9:26 PM
my day is full of ups and downs
a moment i may appear to be alright
but the next moment
i'm like being crushed by the elephant
and the feeling is totally sucky!

damn
i can't even do anything about it
i'm so tired of it right now
sometimes i find the strength to fight on
but other times
your words shoot me down like a bird which is being shot dead
and suddenly
i just could not breathe
i have difficulty breathing
i mean i'm serious about it okies?

i know my heart isn't doing great
and the same thing that happened at chalet would happen to me right now in the middle of the night
just that... is without you
not even mentally you are with me
is feeling weaker as days pass by
i wonder when will it stop

i wonder when will it become alive once again
perhaps the day when things seem better
but is far from me.
i'm reaching to the stars up in the sky
knowing that no matter how high i jumped, i couldnt get it
but i just keep trying and trying.
just for a simple reason
I LOVE YOU
i do not dare to walk away
for fear one day you might just need me anytime
i dare to run beside you
even if you were to hit me hard
because i'm one who will not give up despite much failures

pronouced dead at 9.33pm